I Wonder if...

As a teenager, I have a lot of things, random things, going on in my mind. I always wonder if an average girl like me, has a bright and wonderful future ahead.


I wonder if I'm important to someone.


I wonder if I'm worth the wait, if I'm worth the risk, or if I'm worth fighting for.


I wonder if people remember me the same way I always remember them. Or if they smile when they hear my name.



I wonder if I can be as smart as anyone else, or as talented, or even as beautiful as they are.


I wonder if I'm worth anything.


I wonder why I'm so insecure about my looks and my capacity to do things when I know to myself that I shouldn't be. Maybe because I pressure myself too much. Or maybe I'm just overthinking.


Maybe I AM worth fighting for. Maybe I AM worth something, anything.


Maybe I AM smart. Not as smart as they are but I know I am. Maybe I AM talented and beautiful in my own way. I may not see it because of my insecurities.

Maybe I do have a bright future ahead. I just need to believe in myself and strive hard.


I wonder when I'll stop having these kind of  thoughts. I wonder when I'll be able to embrace myself.

I wonder if...